E S C A P E S - Not escaping 104

If i laid on my front too long it made my chest feel tight after a bit, and that wasn't good. On my side was ok, but my ankles were punished by the spreader bar. Laying on my back was really a bad idea, even with my hands held to one side so i didn't lie on them. i could struggle to a kneeling position, but the tendancy was to rest my tail on the spreader bar and that really worked on the ankles!

After years of spouting off about how great bondage is i had finally come face to face with the truth - it hurts! i would have given anything to get loose, go into the bathroom and have a good quiet cry. i was ashamed of myself. All these years and i had been wrong. i jerked against the chains one more time, they held. It did hurt. Not enough to injure, but enough to feel bad.
i gave up completely. i just laid there and let the pain cover me up - i didn't care. i noticed tears streaming down my face. i was worried about Rob.

i surrendered completely. How was it that bondage had ever felt good? What went wrong? i didn't know and finally i didn't care. My arms relaxed, letting the chains pull them however my limp legs wanted.

i noticed something... when i relaxed the handcuffs and the chains didn't hurt so bad. i guess it was because i was so limp. i waited, time passed. i felt better for sure, but why? It felt hot in all those places that used to respond favorably to bondage and i knew i was wet.

Sure my wrists, elbows, and ankles all hurt and yes the gag in my mouth tasted like dirty cotton, but parts of me felt pretty stimulated.

i had gone into this session with my eye pealed for pain, for the negative side of bondage - and i had found it, very much! That wasn't/isn't the idea though... The idea is to make your life better.

Bondage is great! And if it means a little discomfort then HOGTIE ME! (i already was hog-tied!)

When Rob came over and took off my gag and asked me if i had been crying i told him, "Yes." And when he asked me why i said, "Because i love you so much and because i'm so very happy!"

	Remember the Maine!
	i mean remember the pain... What can i remember that might be of help to a woman who is considering allowing herself to be tied up for the first time? Was i tied up? Yes! Very much, thank you. Could i free myself? No! Not in a million years. Was i comfy? No! Not even close. Could i force Rob to free me? Snap fingers 3 times "Mmmmph!" 3 times Anything 3 times And there was NO way i was going to cheat myself like that!